Love, Life, Get screwed

Its the incessant monotiny of the daily grind that gets to me, I mean being left alone with ones thoughts is a scary prospect for most and i'm no exception to that, at the moment it has a hightend fright factor for me because of what is happening in my personal life. But that is neither here nor there, the point of this blog is to try and convince myself that no matter how much of a hard time your having you can and will always find a way to centre yourself.

With me its goin down the gym and becoming a role model of the highest level, but to do this I will have to take every opportunity that comes my way, no matter how insignificant it may seem. I've finally found out wht the difference between success and failure is, it may seem obvious to most but anyway, you must have the will and drive to become better, you must set goals and assetain them and you must be ready to listen and learn from your mistakes and from others.

That will be my final thought of the day.

"Never has so much been owed by so many to so few" - Mr Winston Churchill

Evening, hows its goin my bloggin' massive?
Well today, i had another contact with Pretty Lady. It wasn't a nice experience but then again I'm inclined to think that there wont be many nice moments where she is concerned.

It was about two o'clock, I'd just txt Mrs Hamster about a swaddle/swaft/baby's blanket. Its been in my family for a couple of generations and my mother understandibly wanted it back as Pretty Lady had it in her posession. Well the reply came from Pretty Lady direct in another txt message, it read; "No yr not and it makes no difference to u anyway. Dont txt Mrs + Mr Hamster, dont get them involved it not fair. When i've sorted out the rest of ur sh1t i'll let u know." well that wasn't too nice was it? The no difference to me bit was in reference to the fact that i asked Mrs Hamster whether I was a daddy yet.

Another txt came about 10mins later, that read; "All yr stuff is outside my front door, dont leave it too long it will get wet. Dont contact me again. And dont involve Mrs and Mr Hamster its casing them to row."

Well to be fair yeah its not ideal using Mr n Mrs H as a go between but what else could I do, I respected Pretty Lady's wishes by not contacting her but the grief that my mother was giving me about that baby blanket, what could I do? What would you have done?

This is the really nasty bit in my eyes, as I've said before, i've paid for the first year of the babies life already, decorated her room, bought a very nice all singing all dancing push chair pram thingy, all the clothes she will need for 12 months, i've got a whole bag of them here too! And she send me back one thing, the last thing that i had bought for the baby, its a t-shirt that says "I love my daddy" and in smaller print "And he loves me" I dont know about you lot but i think that thats pretty nasty.

I feel so sorry for Mr H, he's well and truely stuck in the middle cause i'm his best mate and have been for years and Mrs H is Pretty Lady's best mate, she is also her birthing partner now. Which reminds me, doesn't that make her involved anyway?

"If you aim too high and miss theres a long fall awaiting you."

Hello all, i didn't blog yesterday as i was still pretty down after all the smashing of my emotional walls, it left me in quite a weakend/sorry state, I apologise for this and i'll try never to let it happen again. I'm stronger than most, whether that be in the physical or anything else. Besides, i know i've said it before but i think its something you have to beleive for it to come to fruition. Whats the point in stressing about things that've happened or things you have no control over??

Anyway back to things, since the word has got out that i'm single again i've had a few past female aquaintances make contact, this can only be good? I've also taken the oppurtunity to talk to as many women as possible, one to work on my small talk skills and two cause its fun!!

"All good things come to those that wait."