I'm in such a dark place right now, I feel like there's nowhere to turn and I feel so alone. My parents have been there for me bless 'em but all they can do is offer me a cuddle from time to time which is nice but nothing stops. The pain doesn't go away, the darkness that I feel inside doesn't go away.
I only think about my Little Princess now, I cant get her off my mind, so many questions, is she really mine or was I totally used and totally robbed, I cant sleep and I cant eat because of what Pretty Lady is doing to me. I try to get on with things and for 5 mins I can be ok then it starts again, the darkness and pain.
I just want it all to stop, the pain to go away so I can get on with living my life. I dont feel alive at the moment, its not because of the fact my relationship with Pretty Lady has ended, its my daughter, I'd be the best dad, always there for her, just to listen or to protect, I'd give my life for her and I dont think that she'll ever know how I feel, she'll be a stranger to me and I to her, I never wanted this, not for my daughter. I'll quite literally be the last to know when shes here and that hurts so much. I just want it to stop, theres a gapping hole in my chest and I cant stop my soul from pouring out.
"It is better to have loved and lost rather than never to have loved at all."
The way things are I cant agree.
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Been here before, you or she doesn't realise who will come of worse in the end. I waited 9 years for my daughter. Whe my daughter realised what her mother was, she had nothing more to do with her, even another 10 years on. Like your Pretty lady, the mother of my daughter has four kids, all with different fathers, in bling I think they call that a 'Gold Digger' or something similar.
She won't go on like this forever, what goes round comes round. If it's any comfort, I've got a prefectly healthy relationship with my daughter now. Althought the wait was painful, but worth every day.
In a nutshell, Bollocks to her, her time will come. Don'tever consider getting back with her FFS! You'll be in an early grave, that's for sure.
Chin up, you will win eventually. Forget her and wait it out, painful - yes!